Showing posts from June, 2014

Yeah baby yeah

Today, once the eternal rain stopped for a while, with my doctor's blessing I began my couch to 5K running program. I found a great free app for a running program for my phone that I tried out today and it worked so well. You can listen to whatever music you want to and the app tells you when to walk and run and times out the workout for you. It has a warm up and cool down built in too. Makes it foolproof for 3 weekly runs, with you running 5K by the end of 8 weeks. It is just the kinda thing I need so I can just concentrate on movement and how it feels and not stare at my watch all the time. That is so much of what I loved about running, and I am hoping that my body lets me stick with it. I hope to be back to running 5K 3 times a week by the fall. If I need to add in more weeks to get there that is fine with me...just being able to be more active and regain my fitness is what I'm really going for here.
So, yes, today I found myself out on the trail by the river today. It went…

I heart my foob

I had a stellar review from my surgeon today. I am healing up so well. I have hardly any redness from my rads either and I am already 56%done them, so I am well on the mend! I have the go ahead to do normal stuff now and (yay!) jog, so I may get some new trainers and do that starting next week...and gasp my way back to running and start a couch to 5k program. Of course this means I now have lots of chores to catch up on, but with my arm sleeve I should be able to ease into life (!!!) again.Squee.
I also got my foob this week....and man, i can wear anything again. I honestly didn't mind being monoboob, but some clothes just do NOT fit right with only one mammary going on down there. I can wear a bra again after months of sports's pretty sweet. My hair is well into golden retriever stage, with a good 1/2 inch of fluff, so I hope to get a haircut next month and ditch the hats, and go for a punky haircut. 
But now? Now I'm off to make some supper and head out to a few …

Someone left the cake out in the rain...

It's (another) rainy day. It's been the summer of rain here. It's getting downright soggy.

I am baking my brudder his birthday cake for his birthday party tonight. It has to be gluten free and dairy free and I'm up to the challenge. He requested banana something so I dug out the old Joy of Cooking and am adapting their yummy banana cake recipe. It's a delicious cake and should be moist enough to convert over to gluten free (gluten free flour mix, guar gum and an adjustment of the flour and leavening amounts). I found dairy free "cream cheese" too, so I can make some "cream cheese" (ish)  icing and put some slices of banana between the 2 layers and doll it all up.
Should be tasty!

Later: it was :)

hugga mugga

I loves me my coffee. In university I was a baker and night manager at a local coffee place where I not only learned the fine art of perfect scones and cheesecake baking, but I got hooked on fresh delicious coffee. This place had it's own roaster and brought in beans from around the world - and I had access to the best, delicious coffee in town. From all this, I have discovered my own favourite coffee types and roasts (med roast sumatra mandeling and french roast everything else). I've decided that nothing tastes better than a nice single americano with a bit of heavy cream...a good strong cuppa quality joe doesn't need sugar.

Last year, before I was diagnosed with the big C and was going through a lot of tests, I was encouraged by my doc to cut back from my grad study levels of caffeination (upwards of 10 cups a bad) and reduce it down as low as I could. Not only does caffeination cause mammograms to hurt more, but it was just too damn much caffeine. It was a rat…

So grateful

I am so grateful for my job. Not only do I love it, but it has helped look after me. I have been able to stay home on disability and get well without worrying about work. Also, anything major I have needed to deal with this whole cancer rollercoaster that wasn't covered by our provincial health care has been covered by my work health benefits to a reasonable amount as well. A few wigs were covered and, while checking with them today, I just learned that they will pay the cost of my foob (fake boob...oh, sorry, "mammary prosthesis") and a few mastectomy bras I will need until I can have my reconstruction late next year. They will even cover the compression sleeve I will now need to wear on my right arm sometimes. When I return to work I have help towards finding a personal trainer/ physical therapist to rebuild my strength too.
So grateful right now. Feeling so blessed. :)

Just Peachy

For Josie :)


For the next 5 weeks I get to get a head start on revealing my superpowers. I'm getting a daily dose of computer-targeted, carefully dosed and focused radiation treatments. The idea is to make sure that any little specks of evil left will be decimated by....SCIENCE! (*whoosh!*) Where I live, in the lower level of the cancer clinic, there is a radiation therapy centre, with 3 radiation wards. I am in the hands of the lucky people in the "Galaxy" treatment ward. 

Everyone there has been incredibly kind and helpful and gotten me started on this trek to the end of my (yay!!) treatment. I have 25 treatments in total and with any luck I shouldn't have too many side effects to deal with. Mainly you get (surprise surprise) a sunburn and tiredness. After chemo I'm thinking things will be pretty decent overall to deal with...
I know when I wanted to know more about my radiation therapy I found there wasn't a lot of information about just what happened while you had it don…

Food fight!

I have been trying to cook healthy meals full of fresh produce and cancer fighting foods lately. With summer coming and the vegetable fruit season on the the go, it's getting delicious around here. Today I made some great cancer fighting cauliflower soup for lunch. I started with:

1 head cauliflower, diced up 1 onion chopped 3 t minced garlic 1T coconut oil
Sautéed the veggies a few minutes then added 4c of chicken stock and brought it to a boil. Then I added 1 can coconut milk, 4T tumeric, 1T cumin, 1T vegetarian fish sauce and 1 t rosemary and simmered it until everything was cooked through and added pepper and a bit more cumin to taste. Right before I served it I blended some of it and mixed it back in to cream it up a bit. You could thicken it up a bit more with corn starch if you want for more thickness, but I think it's damn tasty as is. It has a nice light flavour. Next time I might toss in some curry.
Cauliflower, coconut, cumin, tumeric, onions, garlic. Keeping that d…

Thoughts for today

“To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best day and night to make you like everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight and never stop fighting.”  --e.e.cummings
“It's a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you're ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There's almost no such thing as ready. There's only now. And you may as well do it now. I mean, I say that confidently as if I'm about to go bungee jumping or something - I'm not. I'm not a crazed risk taker. But I do think that, generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.” --Hugh Laurie “Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.” --Kurt Vonnegut

Slow and steady

I have the go ahead from my physiotherapist to ride my exercise bike (but not my real one since I'd grip too hard and put bouncy tension on my shoulders) and do some leg work, so starting today I am looking forward to 20 minutes on the bike, and doing the first 3 beginner exercises of this workout 3 times a week, along with my physio arm movements. I can work my time up slowly. Until radiation is done I can't run, or do any upper body stuff yet BUT I have a tension band and set of strengthening things from her to do after that that look interesting...but for now, this is a start.
I feel so much better now wirh chemo done I want to get moving a bit. I hope this helps get me going slowly and safely. I miss how I feel when I exercise!

beautiful eyes

A few days ago I was out seeing a movie (Maleficent -it was amazing) and waiting in the popcorn line. In the lines around me (as usual) some of the children were looking shyly at my lack of facial hair and scarf on my head. Often I'll get asked about it by kids and, honestly, I don't mind most days. That particular day I was feeling a bit mopey and down, but did my best to look them in the face and smile and wait in line patiently and not feel too self conscious.

Then a cute little girl looked at me and walked over and said "you have beautiful eyes!" and smiled and walked back to her dad.

I was gabberflasted. I held back happy tears, smiled and said "thank you sweetie".

And grinned.

Sometimes you expect the same old same old form the world, and it takes a little nudge from it to remind you that there is goodness lurking out there...


I've got a lot of friends, and they've got beautiful eyes....


Mumble mumble.
I am put off a nice sunny walk to the library to wait for someone who was stopping by 2 hours ago...sigh.
Luckily I can wait on the it's not all bad!
I am sitting out here rubbing my peach head and trying to think of ways to amuse myself that are ok to be interrupted...which is harder than one might think. Hence this blog post...which I imagine isn't the most exciting post to come off my fingers, but hey, that's 10 whole minutes wasted by now.
Now what?