Wednesday, July 22, 2015

I've just got to put these wings to test....

It's an Annie Lennox kinda day. She's one of my diva heroes...I've
been humming old Eurythmics tunes all day and am now onto her greatest
hits as I work away here on SOPs and the last of the documents before I
get to go on holidays for a few weeks.

I can't wait.

This last week I've been working on doing the Bodyrock 21
day beach bootcamp and it's been a good challenge so far. 30 seconds
work and 10 seconds rest is something I can get into. The workouts are
less than 30 minutes so I can fit it in my morning without too much
fuss. I'm determined to be as active as I can until my surgery in
September. Still don't have a date set yet. Hope to know soon...Then I
can start psyching myself up for it.

For now it's just keeping my head down to get all this stuff done and I can go away and relax for a while with my family.

Soon.

:)

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

To flap or not to flap. That is the question.

I just had a follow up appointment this morning with my plastic surgeon. I thought it was just to check in with him about what we'd talked about previously and get clearance to book my recon surgery in september. It was a strange meeting. After looking at my chest again he felt that although I have healed up well my radiated skin might not be robust enough to survive the surgeries and expansion and that there is a risk that that whole route might end up with me having to have it all undone and then try another surgery. I can't do a flap surgery from my abs or butt (since I'm pretty healthy he heh...the first time it's been a bad thing to be thin and healthy) but apparently they can take some of my latissimus muscle from my back and move it forward to my chest to create a pocket to put a small expander and eventual implant into and take a piece of skin from my back and use it to rebuild my breast so that it should stretch out better and be healthier. It's called latissimus flap breast reconstruction surgery. There is a 95% chance that this would work very well and be quite natural looking....except for the scar it would leave on my back, but it would be a straight line along where the bra strap sits, so I'm trying to make my peace with it. There are other back muscles that work to support your back and shoulder so I wouldn't be significantly weakened by it all...just might not be able to play tennis or row in a boat...
I'm trying to make my peace with it. I was all gung ho and ready to book in for my expander and eventual swap out - as frustrating as it will be for the whole process I was ready mentally to get that all going. Now it's a more major surgery and I have to stay overnight after...but in the end it should work out to be a good result. Total recovery time is about the same, just more pain since there's two sites and not one that they are working with. Ugh. Still...the more I look at it I feel like I would be too vain to try and do the original way and end up having it fail  just to save a scar...and it's not like I'm not scarred already. Plus, apparently flap reconstructions look much more natural too, so if I'm going to do this I would like to have it look as good as possible. I'm just sitting here at work on my break trying to wrap my head around it. I should hear in a week or so what my surgery date is. If the scars bug me later I'm planning a beautiful tattoo to wrap around from my back across my chest. I plan to do this on my terms.
BUT
On the plus side, and on a totally different topic, I just learned that there is going to be a live reading of the Welcome to Nightvale podcast in Edmonton on my actual birthday in October...he heh. SO I'm getting J and I tickets and we're going to make a birthday weekend of it and go visit friends and see it. I have really been enjoying the podcast and on our recent road trip we listened to a few and J is now a fan as well. Should be a fun way to celebrate my birthday.

Anyhoo...should go get some work done. I feel like I've slacked a lot since I was away for my appointment but I after a talk with J on the phone I just had to get this out from rolling around in my head so I can concentrate on what I'm doing. Thanks interweb peeps.
Later taters.

Friday, July 10, 2015

Where does the time go?

Hullo. I've been off doing things.
Sorry I haven't popped by much lately. It's been so warm and lovely and I just had a whole 10 days off work so I've been away and out in the world. We went on a road trip to northern Alberta and went to a music festival in the forest and met up with so many old friends that I haven't seen in forever. It was wonderful. Danced. Drank mojitos. Laughed. Smiled until my face hurt. The weather was great, and I even had a day or 2 at home after to just relax with J. It was wonderful. I have a slight tan even... the time off was so nice. AND only a few more weeks until I'm off for 3 whole weeks for a few family weddings and then a bit of a holiday to Ottawa to see my whole famdamily for a bit for my neice's wedding- it's been forever since we've all been together and I can't wait. We've found a huge acreage on airbnb that all 12 of us plus the kidlets can fit into for during the week we're visiting there...with a pool too! Plus J and I are staying a few extra days to explore the city and celebrate our anniversary. It'll be a wonderful time - so looking forward to it. I just need to get through the next 2 weeks and I'm free again for a while. Giggedy.
Summer is here. It's hot (almost too hot) and relaxing and I am loving it. On the downside the forest fires are raging in the north of the province - it hasn't been this bad in over a decade. They're bringing in the army and firefighters from all over to try and save the northern towns. The smoke is making it's way all the way down to us some days. We're hoping for a big prairie rain soon...we desperately need it. There's a fire ban right now. A friend of mine has been evacuated from her home because there are fires raging 1.5 Km from her town...rain dance for us people. We need it.
Since we've been back I've started up a batch of crabapple wine (finally) and watched J play with his lasers at a live performance with a friend. The friend played his music and J used his lights and lasers and some custom mount mirrors we'd built frames for together with friends to create a really amazing light show.
Yup. Lots going on. I'll try and post more when I can. I've been able to get back to workouts again as of this week so I've tried to do things and walk to work every morning to work to be good. So far so good.
Have a great day! :)

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

Sleepy me

Today I slept in. It was glorious. Last night I was really tired so other than make muffins I just napped and went to bed early. I could still use some more sleep. Healing makes you tired. I keep forgetting that.
I am good and stiff today though and my chest is still a bit stiff form monday. Funny how just 2 weeks off is enough to make you creaky again after a workout :). Ah well - tomorrow will be another workout. I'll be fine I'm sure. It's tough to find exercises that don't push your core...but I think I'm getting it done.
This morning was a nice walk to work. It was 17 already. Didn't even need a coat. Bet it's a warm walk home!
Later taters :)

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Whoosh

Busy day. Just logging -this morning I did some leg stuff... 3 x 15 of:
-deep squats
-forward lunges
-backward lunges into a forward kick
-side lunges with toe touch
-deadlift with 16 Lb
Then I walked to work. Now I'm heading home. Much to do!
Bye!

Monday, June 22, 2015

chocolate banana cream cheese icing - oh yeah

nom


It was a busy but fun weekend. The gf banana chocolate cake with chocolate banana cream cheese icing for my brudder's birthday backyard BBQ was a hit and the show friday night was great too. J did great at his visuals and it was a fun night - an all vinyl funk dance party after 2 good local bands started it off. J worked all weekend and made some $$ and feels better about his work again and I got to relax. There was much kitty luv too.





I was gonna go see the Jurassic Park movie with Heather but she ended up having to tend to a sick Xander so that never got to happen. Yeah, the only downside to the weekend was poor little Xander going in the hospital on saturday with a bladder infection (poor little guy - he's such a trooper) - he had a fever and was crying and they couldn't calm him or get the temp. down so they took him in since he is so little and it's good they did. Once they figured out what the problem was and got him on the road to recovery with some antibiotics my friends and their little one were much calmer. He's still in the hospital for another day or so and I will see if I can pop by for a visit today. Heather has been reading aloud to him to pass the time and has kept it up in the hospital... currently it's a Dresden files novel. It's hilarious - she said the nurses walked in yesterday while she was reading a scene involving attacking werewolves and they looked a bit confused, but Xander was cooing and smiling at her voice happily...this guy's gonna be a  proper little nerd oh yes. :)

This morning was just over 2 weeks post surgery so I can get back to some fitness so I dragged my ass out of bed to do my upper body workout and a shwack of squats. Still shouldn't do anything ab intensive, but "regular" non-core related workouts and biking/running are apparently OK again, so I figure I have no excuse. So I did 3 times of the following with 8Lb followed by a nice sunny walk to work:
10 pushups
15 dumbell curls
15 chest presses
15 chest flys
15 tricep extensions
15 bent rows
10 side arm raises
10 front raises
15 side ab raises
20 deep squats

And now, I must stop avoiding things and get to work. Monday mornings are always sloooooooow going. Especially without morning caffeine now. But, it's all good. Today my dad arrives after visiting my sick auntie and we are all going out for supper tonight for my bridder's birthday and fathers day all rolled into one. It's gonna be a good day.
I wish you all a good day too.

Friday, June 19, 2015

Ah. Weekend.

It's friday. thank frog. I've been tired all week and it'll be nice to get to sleep in and relax a bit. J and I have saturday afternoon off together which will be nice - I haven't seen him much lately. Sunday is my big brudder's birthday BBQ and monday is Dad coming to visit for a slightly late father's day, so it'll have some visiting too to even it all out. And more sleep. Yay sleep. I've been tasked with making a chocolate banana gluten free birthday cake. Oh yes. It's on.
Tonight I can go to the first night of the event J is doing visuals at (Mosofest) and dance like a monkey for a bit of moral support and enjoy the local music. I went with him last night to help design, cut and hang some shapes from coroplast to project onto. It's not ideal, but it should work OK. I met the other crew of the event last night and they're all good guys. It's all a bit of a shmozzle, but it should turn out OK in the end...it's just not what it was originally hoped to be. It will have a few bands I enjoy as well as 2 DJs that play funky music so it'll be fun. It'll get hermity me out to see some of my friends and enjoy myself a bit. I finally feel pretty much normal so I figure I'm OK to dance and have a beer.

On the upside, J's submission to the local Nuit Blanche outdoor arts festival was accepted, so that was a bit of a boost for his morale (I just noticed that J and I are walking in the event video on the website from last year at 2:34 on the front left. He hee. He has a hat and I have my "sherlock" cape coat on). We've been joking that now he's now an "official" artist cuz some artists said so...Ooh. Aah. It should be rather neat though. The whole event is a fantastic community event celebrating local art as regular old art, music, dance, performance art, poetry & spoken work, art installations and interactive exhibits in a few outdoor blocks in Saskatoon. Last year was our first year and it was fantastic. J's project for this year involves lasers and glass bricks. It should be neato. :)

As for me? Well I should get back to work from my break. Much to do before the weekend finally welcomes me into it's silky embrace.

Oh you beautiful weekend how I've missed you so....